the night before he passed away. The 53-year-old actor was taken to Kokilaben Hospital Mumbai on April 29 morning, where he breathed his last. Sutapa also stated that that was the day the clock had stopped for her at 11.11 on April 29.
Sutapa Sikdar wrote an emotional note recalling her husband’s last days. She wrote, “People living deeply have no fear of death’… Anais Nin, your favorite poet, Irrfan. Last year tonight me and my friends sang songs for you, all your favorite songs. The nurses were looking at us strangely as they were used to religious chants in critical times but I had overdone that for you, Irrfan, morning evening and night for two years and since they told me it was time, I wanted you to go with memories you loved… so we sang songs… next day you left for the next station. I hope you knew where to get down without me”.
She continued, “363 days. 8712 hours…when each second is counted. How exactly does one swim this huge ocean of time. The clock had stopped at 11.11 on April 29 for me… Irrfan, you had a keen interest in mystery of numbers…and funny you had three 11’s on your final day. Some say, actually, many say this is a very mystical number 11/11/11. How does one walk ahead the pandemic, just adds to the anxiety, fear and pain.”
Sutapa Sikdar confessed that the days spent without her husband Irrfan Khan were the most difficult days for her and that the life had become empty without him. She wrote, “The days went by with umpteen responsibilities, some extremely new ones like signature galore for changing of name. My fingers kept stopping on that how could I just take his name away and make it Sutapa, I was unable to sign. Took a day off and the name game played on my mind. Like a film in a projector.”
Sutapa also recalled her NSD days with Irrfan Khan. She shared her emotional memories with heavy heart. In 1984, Irrfan Khan enrolled at the National School of Drama, where he met Sutapa Sikdar for the first time. They tied knots in 1995 and had…
